I’ve been wondering…
All the wrong things to think. Would you have died so young had we not been together? Would you have died alone?

I have concluded that maybe I was something of a disappointment to you. I know that feeling. But I also know you loved me, despite the fact that I let you down, time and time again. I’ll never know why. I’ll never understand why I had you when I did, and why you chose me over everyone else.

And I’ll never understand why I only had you for the short time between us.

I miss you, and I’m sorry I wasn’t better at being with you than I was. I could have done better. I should have.

There are some things that I shouldn’t have to explain, and only you would know about them anyway.